‘I felt guilty about having kids’: The Bachelor’s Abbie Chatfield reveals she had an abortion months before filming the show – and wept when a producer asked her about pregnancy
The Bachelor runner-up Abbie Chatfield has revealed she had an abortion several months before filming the show.
She told the Shameless podcast on Thursday that the frequent discussions about pregnancy and babies on the show were upsetting in light of her experience.
The 24-year-old property analyst revealed that she even broke down in tears after a male producer suggested how ‘nice’ it would be to have a child.
‘I felt guilty about having kids’: The Bachelor runner-up Abbie Chatfield (pictured) had an abortion several months before filming the show
Abbie said the producer asked her a leading question about pregnancy while former Bachelor winners Laura Byrne and Snezana Wood were visiting the set.
He asked her: ‘Isn’t it nice to see Snez and Laura pregnant? Wouldn’t it be nice to be pregnant with someone you love?’
Explaining why this question made her burst into tears, she told Shameless: ‘Because I had an abortion last year, I just started sobbing.’
Traumatic: Abbie revealed the frequent discussions about pregnancy and babies on The Bachelor were upsetting in light of her experience. Pictured on the show with former Bachelor winners, Snezana Wood (left) and Laura Byrne (centre), who were both pregnant at the time
Abbie confessed that the abortion made her ‘hesitant’ to start a family.
Her situation was made worse by the fact other people on set, including Sogand Mohtat and Matt Agnew’s friend Kate, would often ask her about having children.
‘I’m so sick of having to justify [to these women] why I haven’t been screaming from the rooftops, “I want kids”,’ Abbie said.
‘At that time, I felt very guilty for saying that I wanted kids because I had aborted one in March last year.’
Emotional trigger: Abbie told the Shameless podcast that she even broke down in tears after a male producer suggested how ‘nice’ it would be to have a child
Abbie explained that producers did not know about her abortion before the show.
They didn’t find out until she discreetly told Matt Agnew about it in a ‘whisper’, which prompted a crew member to tell her: ‘Abbie, you’re going to have to say it out loud.’
She added: ‘And then I turned around, looked dead in the camera and said, “I had a f**king abortion last year!”‘
Abbie later ‘begged’ producers not to include revelation in the final edit, but she decided to go public this week in order to combat the stigma surrounding abortion.
Vulnerable moment: Producers didn’t find out about Abbie’s abortion until she discreetly told Matt Agnew (right) about it in a ‘whisper’. This prompted a crew member to tell her, ‘Abbie, you’re going to have to say it out loud’
‘I just don’t want people to be shamed for that’: Abbie became very emotional on the podcast, fighting back tears as she explained her reason for sharing her story
Abbie became very emotional on the podcast, fighting back tears as she explained her reason for sharing her story.
‘In the house, I told the girls about my abortion… because I didn’t want other women to feel ashamed about having abortions and I feel like it was used against me,’ she said.
‘A lot of women have abortions and, whether or not you know they have abortions, it’s OK. I just don’t want people to be shamed for that or feel internal shame.
‘Maybe someone who’s kind of in the public eye saying they’ve had an abortion and that it’s ok will help them [women who’ve had abortions].’
Supportive friends: Abbie revealed she had an abortion to Zara McDonald (left) and Michelle Andrews (right) on the Shameless podcast